You're not going to be a Lottery winning hit.
You can only hope to show up. It's the only thing you can do. Even if you don't.
The annoying entrepreneur who treated you as a disposable product, by encouraging you to burn the candle at both ends for millennia are not going to reach any self-revelation, they are going to keep pushing this toxic advice.
It's all a sunk cost, all of it. No amount of hagiographic pity partying is going to change that. Be thankful you're out of the tempting maelstrom of burning the candle of both ends, at least now you can do the work.
Other's have been in your path. The amount of ranting about it ain't going to fix this system of toxic encouragement. Be thankful of the time that you still have.
You don't want to be a product now.