Wednesday, February 28, 2024
Reverie reflections
Sunday, December 31, 2023
Illustrator's Summery
This commitment is here now, needing to be sated.
Wednesday, December 20, 2023
500 streaming bonaza.
500?? Why? Why. The tired must be there. |
Another victory lap, this time it's with streaming. It's been sustainable since I've managed to do it with subjects I enjoy. The tension to perform to twitch algorithms designed to please the masses for advertisements was too much.
Tuesday, December 19, 2023
Collapsed fence
Rough 10 min Trace from my smartphone. |
Collapsed, meaningless walls, such as this with many forgotten details, there were so many cans of people who threw them over as this got over. It was a junkyard of mess, and there's a fence and crew now. The construction was saying that I was in the way.
Monday, November 27, 2023
The Monomyth Joseph Campbell
A look it as a face, to a way of a hero's journey. |
Some meanings are glossed over, I managed to get through it though.
It's a book, one diving into what is seen as cosmological yearnings, diving into the subconscious and making it all weaves together with tales of going out.
This mythopoetic take on what it means to tell a story. With a nuclear unit, that passes to the teleology of genre storytelling. Surpassing all literature and commercial endeavours, to the big unknowing and the beyond. It's been, what is to say, spiritual. Codified into a praxis for other writers and storytellers.
It's something that's been constantly recommended by editors and entertainment storytellers, I now get it. In a basic, rudimentary sense, as a means of motivation.
For a less euro-centric-male centric perspective, check out 1001 Heroine with a thousand faces.
Wednesday, November 22, 2023
Hoisin duck fries and birthday sketch
Hoisin duck fries, Cappuccino and a caramel biscuit. |
Did another birthday sketch, for DA. Out of lurking for several years and coming out.
Maybe I'll never be asked to do another birthday, deep in my soul, did I really do it for a direct advertising return? No, I did at a whim of a bara artist that I lurked within my twenties and kept at it, this is my thanks that I managed, A little messy yet it's out there. The message of a horned couch went through.
Thursday, October 26, 2023
Lantern parade reflections
Friday, October 13, 2023
Marciy Marie, Cush Monty, revision
The only AFAB design.
Monday, September 25, 2023
Characters and style experiments
I'm still working on the odd couple dynamic with Danny and George.
Friday, September 1, 2023
First my art post
Saturday, August 5, 2023
Streamin marathon thoughts
I started streaming last month 2022-07-30-29-16-22
- A creative physical toll on my resources. The downward spiral of me feeling more like content and lack of creativity.
- A share cropping relationship to what I gave. Not the collaboration building. I refuse to produce a nebulous 'content maker' to feed its algorithm.
- An ego check, I don't want to be tethered to on social media platform, social media grooming it instead of doing meaningful projects. The number felt like they were approaching me.
- Wanting to go adult/nsfw how can I explore the gay romance genre, including the bara genre if I have to keep hiding it from twitch? Do I have to couch cover all the explicit bits?
They don't share dignity to those who burn the candle at both ends, the cheapening of the work they encourage here is not in favour of any meaningful curation. It sucks away all time due to one appeal of being present, and doing it now rather than doing it asyncriousnously, even live in the chatrooms. It almost ain't never efficient.
Along with the sharecropping, yeah, unlike this blogger. I'm not sure how long Twitch will last, along with other platforms.
So I streamed my art, the most sustainable thing for myself, not the most optimal path for the algorithm. Such a statistic could have done rear-view mirror behaviour. Even making my best streams, I felt at mercy to this mindless mechanization with the incentives I put in place.
It's okay.
I thank the connections and value I added with the networking I was able to do, yet the constraints of this are too much. I'm not sure the search engine optimization (seo) for twitch, with tricks to get on its first page. It is not the way I can make work that had pride in it.
This ain't even burnout, this was a lack of compensation of all the hard work by the platform, not any one in particular.
This is a dilemma I'm experimenting on.
Going to switch to twitch weekend streaming now. Picarto streaming for the rest. It has less of an audience base, yet the mathematical "gotta appeal to the masses" mindset is getting to me. Need to focus on learning.
Is this the path one should follow? Influencer track documentary, 2 hours.
Social media fame, urghth.
Saturday, June 17, 2023
Reflection of cozy.
This wordpress article got me thinking. Things are erupting on twitter again, maybe I need to be on it less. Along with some interesting responses. Ursula Leguin, hm.
As a rise of that response to that original article on the cozy genre, along with that, please don't throw shade to the writer.
Genre is a useful social construct of sorting, via the audience uses to market their expectations. It's useful for the creator to consider this useful fiction used to help sort a taxonomy.
It's as real as a psychological desire, if I was to pin it with a conceptual distinction.
Is the cozyification a reflection of dumbing down? Staying safe? Depends.
It's out there now, in the public space, forming tribes, what's the problem is more children/adult genre not being clear with its commercial or literary intentions.
This happened with superhero movies with their 13. (Content warning, gore) The same argument was used in reverse with superhero movies. When there were marketed to adults.
This kerfuffle is simply the confusion of genre, its relation to the marketing. All related towards what type of age audience the creator does. Confusing the other when the other is done. This applies less to self-publishing, so whatever comes and goes. It's all good.
All this has made me think about interpassivity within storytelling, of course, with my own ending given within the romance. The interpassivity and mass-cult appeal, the real enemy to the creative.
That's my attempt at the discourse.
After notes, there's this cussy long article on the origins of cozy horror, 30 min-ish read.
Sunday, May 28, 2023
Production values, worth it for the comic/idea?
What is this polish, or lack of for? To sell to a gatekeeper? Or to spread our ideas?
What will sell an idea of a story? The idea or the production values in of itself? Many these comic makers from manga got me thinking. Is the labour in the polished illustrations or the idea?
This may be making an 'animalistic' point, yet the starting idea of what to draw comes before the how-to, the starting idea for a big project matters more. The intuitive is always something to be learned. That's not what an instruction manual teaches.
Tuesday, May 23, 2023
What is interaction debt for?
Feet voting and exploitive industry avoidance detecting, that's the only tools this positive side of this algorithm has. |
Reflecting on why people respond and don't charge. Along with the time when they don't.
Saturday, May 20, 2023
Forgot Zhangku's Tail, of milk and tails.
Oh no, where did I leave it?
Yet now I posted it, posted it all over within today, it's sunk into the quicksand. All them posts on all those media platforms. With the question of should or should I not revise it dangling into the winds. Ephemeral in my imaginations eye, flickering in and out.
It's gift art, nothing in, nothing out. Work for free where you set the standard, oh. Yet, a birthday gift is all the tastier if you put a littler supererogatory effort in it. More juicy for the thirsty.
More humanity, more couchmanity, more my llamanity, mor-
Deattachable tails?? Well, I can reattach my chest- nevermind.
It's time to bring it, did a discussion regarding milk. Oh no, it was so messy that there was almost a schism over taste preferences. Milk Everywhere!
Goats cheese, or llamas cheese. Don't ask why I crave it. I tried to by diplomatic on where it came from. Including the full fat variety. We equal lines at the nut milks, oh maybe- before the guns of milk could be fired! Phew.
No heads knocked off.
I must give the milk. Don't ask the milk, have the milk. Tasty milk. milk. Along with a squiggle. The milk couch bring his gifts, and then some. Good enough!
Cleaned the mess before birthday. At 12 pm.