Surgery survival

hopefully this is abstract enough to be explicit, doll-like anatomy.

This presumes that the physicians of the governmental health service went swimmingly.

I made it, heres some photographs

Before

After

6 week of not lifting, 2 weeks for surgery shower-proof scar to come off, 2 days for that padded bandage to come off. Feels like some meshed webbing with painkillers.

Now I have a mesh that could be how my knowledge and foundherentism epistemology made manifest via the physician.

Bandages and socks I had to wear when I go.

Surgery Hernia day

If I get complications 1-100 and pass.

Donate all my IP into the public domain

I'll ask the guardian about subscriptions.

All my sentiments from my inguinal hernia are different.

The discovery of eliminative physicalism/materialism and the idealistic mindset and How it connects with crunch/hustle culture has been fun. Reductio ad absurdam

The writing and revising of my foundherent beleifs has been valuable. It's so I don't exist as a drone.

I've got some down the pipeline too.

Finding Uniqunamosaurus vid on NFT was a discovery.

Libido, the most mediocre impulse

This is the impulse

now return and do a style/mind of abstract reconfigure: illustrate level up, level down, level right, level right leve-

Yeah, sex work, or prostitution, will not go away with no whining or complaining, and the egg-shell walking won't go away – supplier/vendor complaints.

So now I can't commit to creativity because it's nondeterministic performance, and I'm feeling for something that I can't escape from for all the mediocre porn I consumed and replicated to the asinine addiction. That grate of a twee licentiousness that was commodified and recuperated within, again and again.

Instead of friends, it's buzzworded positivity and pretension of hustles of average. I'm not average; I'm the exception.

Or so I think. I'm only an entertainer; the show drags on. "There will always be a demand in industry for product" So sayeth, Harlen Ellison. 🛋💥🤡 So I go back from exceptional elitism to common sell-out.

Surgery prep, placebo time

Its going to get worse if I don't get this, and there's a chance that I'll be bedbound, and a 100 to 1 chance of complications. There may be a hose to draw out excess fluids; there will be at 7:30, where I'll inhale funny gas while getting that feeling of having half my guts slipping down my scrotum out of me. Along with the weird knots.

2 weeks of not exercising.

Do not want an artery cut and then bleed out. Yet this one is a professional. I'll be gowned and sleep and then wake up, right? Sleep and wake. Wake up with my guardian beside me.

Had this with the back teeth out, lower back teeth. 10 years it's been in and last year it was discovered.

Alan Thrall had a video on it; that cooled me.

Had to pull it back in with knots back on Friday. Sometimes it feels like metal brambles, sometimes it feels like a iron rod.

An egoism of memoirs ; Grandad's last visit

Reflections of the self: Grandad on a deathbed, something I won't upload on an LLM. To what I admit, as I like to eliminate myself in service of a community of an iteration of practice of the present times, I know it isn't everything.

Cheesy, corny parts of a life placed here are all flavour text for my more important articulations

They gave a history of his life. Here's this quote I got on a text message.

"Grandad grew up on a farm; your great-grandad was a pig farmer. He would take Grandad to the agricultural fairs in the farm truck which had Olders Farm on the side of it. He would enter his prize pigs. The most famous of which was called 'Bournes Green Maple the third'. A photo of the pig was behind his desk in his office. 

Grandad's 1st job was ________, and he had a big cart he would collect the pig muck on and sell it for fertiliser. Another job he had was human scarecrow ... he had to stand in a field and shoot the birds as they came to eat the crops. 

Grandad then went in the __________ for national service and spent 3 years in _______ operating a radar. He then went to agricultural college, where he met Granny.

He worked as a teacher and worked training farm labourers to do stuff on farms , then he married Granny and they worked in ________ , and did agricultural training with the people there. Later they went to Papua New Guinea and did the same thing there."

He looked so weak in the bed; his faint smile from past his 80's was the impression.

That Clown Workshop I missed

Clowning incoherence as therapy. That was the stuff; found it pointless with pragmatic, hustling illusions, yet this one. The Protestant work ethic bug had caught me.

Felt like I was wasting my time, yet I wasn't.

Regretful I am, trying to act like an entertainer. Plenty of missed opportunities to the theatre; I got a note that they missed me.

Darn it.

Yet this one felt special, and with that. From the midlands.

Surgery check up of Hernia

Please let this placebo by quick, and this surgery be graceful.

So many writers, so many words and concepts I'm catalouging.

With having to push up a lump up into my gut from it slipping out, Could it have started with a deadlift? I don't think so, regardless, it happened with.

Pulled an oddly wet sponge right up the belly, even the truss can't be contained. 

Pulled it up and wiggled it from the bathroom floor.

From the sofa, in the covers.

On a yoga mat.

Outside of a inner flat with cold air of a tugging of a vital artery I had to maneuver.

Bunch of tubes into a tight space, then i pull one out.

Then with a pop in, the pop back in.

It wiggles back. More than 50, lost count of the chronic conditions.

It's like a octopus that slouches out of a snake with and it does not come back up.

Here's wishing for a swift surgery.

Or why be polemical? (or have opinions to government)

The spectacle slips

• Due to masks slipping and my respect for talent slipping. Better to work with easy-to-work with peers rather than a insufferable talent
• Since obedience to exploitative schedules is a liberal hustle culture lie shared with the Protestant work ethic of the past.
• Since if I don't campaign and advocate for myself, then I can't complain.
• Since I can't control the crowd, yet I can see the celebrity and catechisms that lead it.
• The entertainment suspension of polemics is itself a radical act, even if it's indie industry.
• To not be groomed into traps.
• "Someone withholding information dreams to be your master." Quote from Sid Meier's Alpha Centaur (that's a bonus, I don't play games anymore.)
• Pagliccu syndrome, or comics unable to able act like hide there clownery
  
• Stalking horses masquerading as entertainment
• Because it's fun, even if I scream from a paytoilet

Another grandad visit

Mind was full of dogwhistles. To find honesty within government matters Is a mental toil. Yet I take my energy from trying to console Grandad in his late days.

These times I want to be young and carefree with the childish flying. So I have to make something that ain't Junuphobia.

Talks of beep boop, Grandad. My exposé on the Disney exposé went ignored. There goes my polemics, down in non-newsworthiness. Ruthlessness does not count as the spectacle self-implodes and sells spectator tickets with its frumpy enforcement.

Disney, with its lapdogs, the embarrassing performances of unintentionality. Obsessing about it now as they deliver blockbusters mystifies the iconoclast within me.

So, hospital bed and smartphone photo sharing with filters and how normalised it's become.

Sigh. Apart from the denialists, or miserablist enforcement, still alive. The ai issue is with my trying to remain a freak away from the hypemonger.

I've yet to read a giant back catalogue that makes me snobby with video games. Time was on my mind, yet so was A Confederacy of Dunces.

Enough of the self-important news made a spectacle. Slap of pain out. Cheddar cheese lunch sandwich.

His consciousness is there, barely registering as I explain my project too. Not sure how this licentious youth I have left contrasts with the stoic, frail tradition left to reconstruct into fiction. What a word! It's normalised. Glad age puts another in a state of mind. I'm silly and occupied with my own domination of 230 of a bill of anti-trust which I'm doing.

Bohemian flirts

Play around.

In the park.

With my mates.

Fireplace.

Cardboard queen burns.

Dancing pagan mask.

The tent of 20s air.

Crick crick crick.

Sapiosexual/Demisexual

Cognition and Emotional.

Logos and Eros.

Expression of Philosophy/intellectual cogency and the emotional bonding of intuitions.

Such is a manner of identifying with the continuing expansion of the taxonomy of sexual attractions towards understanding the performance of self.

With that, that merely shows that with the commodifying of community and queer theory with the expression with of ones own sexual identity is a manner of understanding if any of these labels serve, I'm lurking again within more of the ethics of substack, and it's a matter of time to understand new ways to talk with others.

There are a lot of images, either generated or and I'm getting less phased to condemn or endorse, it simply exists.

Thanks queer theorists, thanks non-elitist philosophers. They still keep asking questions and non-questions. Until I go back to work.

Here's a really cussy edutainment piece, with functional philosophy definitions btw, relinking it.

New Year, Self update and thoughts with Grandad. (Bonus Fave 3s)

Still taking pics of myself, with seeing if I can get a hernia treatment

He's alright, he's resting well with physical treatment doing well. Can't complain with the amount of chocolate that's come in with the off-brand oreo cookies. All part of the life of the Petit boug.

Darn, even unimportant. Feel less hustled than playing the latest video games to game social media

Wow, what's this?

Favourite Youtube Essays bonus!

1. Alexander Aviles : How Corporations hijacked the Anti Ai Backlash 

2. Fd Signifiers : Sinners and the Death of Black Art
3. (Challenger of another view) Peter's Coffin on Bomberguy - On elitism

Fav Podcast

1. Structuralism & Marxism (feat. Nicolas Villarreal) Emanicipation podcast

2. Neitzhe and the left Emancipation Podcast

3  Why Scientists Can't Rebuild a Polaroid Camera [César Hidalgo]

 Fav Substack essays

1. Knifestack: The death of the copywriter

2. Andy Masley : The Ai water issue is Fake

3. Devon Halliday : My Literary Fiction is more literary Than Yours

Fave Edutainment

1. CJ to the X : That Time Disney Ruined Kiki's Delivery Service

2. Flazefire : Twitter Artists (and why they're hated)

3. Corridor Crew : I turned my friends into living Toys

The land of no boundaries of business guru maxims

 This vision were all the matter. 

With mass advertiser. Goes into the hustle trance.

The way of the machine zone of playing an eternal economy game of physical pleasure/pain, all the complexities between. With the emotional ways and emotional states, compared to the physical states.

Then I'm trying to clamber for an extension, then I'm not, getting substack posts via business gurus, are well, people who happen to keep working, it's all the advice of people who keep workings

How is the motivation doing, self-industry complex? Any benefit? You don't have to follow any of this advice if you don't have a problem. They are nebulously reaching for better within the void of extrajudicial lands.

Thanks, I guess, then there's that phrase in snarl quotes.

Personal brand, not caring about strangers. Guess that's the confirmation a publisher does using the legal fiction. With what a publisher does after all the labour is all collected, his personal value judgement is there.

I can't blame that kind of mindset, if he's running an independent, giving free advice if it does not work or not.

At least you're not selling anything, bud! Well, bought into this.
Took your test on your blog.

Such entertainment 🛋️💭

There you go, into the sunk cost of getting a book deal (or not) I know you're trying to help. With words of authenticity cropping up again (Illusionist entertainers aren't), then it's the reason this will go.

Where will you stop with the how-to roulette? Reverse engineer.

Well, continue on with your generalities.

(You could consider pablum, what do you think?)

This one's fascinating though, creator economy he's coined? Idk, this may be what publishers give a sunk cost to creatives (Petit boug) Who happen to build their labour of signals of distribution.

Have some more, Philosophy wannabe. Signalling is talking about semiotics? I'm still reading that Umberto eco book with all the academic reading.

He's a slow-down kind of man, I'm a stay-in-sync-with-yourself-man

Solving problems? I like to give my characters problems.

Well good sir, good going on a sunk cost. 🛋️👍 Like I am.

"Stay Sovereign" Was the email.

The internal theater of angry visions

Fuming. It happens, its ephemeral, only in an instance of any newsworthiness  buzzwordiness of each celebrity passing.

That impression.

Obsession and pretension over porn interests while keeping NSFW porn intake under wraps. Then they return to the popularity contest. Macro scale, impossible to control.

Pretend is to claim/demand etymological, everybody's a critic, everybody's a reply man.

Oh, How I desperately need to curate it all, How I need responsibility.

So my algorithm ( ha ha, they say there's none, fire hose is an algorithm ) bubbles and filter.

Thanks workplace. Time to self-regulate again.

Holiday of convention convenience. Or on the arc of justice.

I hope Grandad gets the card.

Look at all those presents and pleasantries. I need family, actual family. Not a family that's found, or showing up, well. There's a book for that now, so many specificity I can get to.

Happy Holidays!

Why i may not be a comic artist.

Contemplation, I'll continue zining. Yet a need the negative space to propel forward.

• Low pay: Lack of wages since it's one of the passions that can't be fuelled and be profitable, that's a reality with most creative industries. Or, oxymoronically, it's due to creativity might not pay off, an indertinimate amount of trying to make something new.
• Abusive Supervisors with awful labour management practices/ No labour protections: This comes from expierence, I brushed with them twice , Well, with graphic design/illustrator jobs.
  I learned more from Eric Helms bodybuilding pyramid and then that. Realistic, enjoyable, and flexible.
• Hustle Mindset: Level up! Power scaling! Amelioration for the sake of it, when all the labour puts down with the distribution being sent online for a microblogging platform that only expects pornographic performances, or something to that of copywriting. A mental model that's never good enough with the metric that can harbour averages.
  
  There's a ladder, and there's a bridge to sell you, so many with the how-to-industry complex.
  
  
• Art is mere copyrighting commodification: Well, You know if you know. At least I know I'm a hackneyed entertainer for transparency of my aesthetics with what I show, like a magician's illusion, because I find it fun to hold attention. They do have a vanity with the delusions of grandeur. Especially with the industry of publishers of copyrighting for them with PR. Lack of self-respect with the field of not protecting there labour.

That's water is wet moment. Yet I do it anyway.

 Other than that, the vision of making a storyboard to life continues.

Marked for death/Marked for life

 Since certain things are blind side themselves, the doctrinaires that fly in my for-you feed with the occasional posturing the random beep boop hate.

I don't have to time, An alternative opinion is what I'm showing.

Already, they could frame this tweet, quote-mine it, then make it into a call-out post to try to get clout, yet I know better. Well, esteem, it's one big fluff of a drug. Only thing to proceed now to see others who have been through the dip and blocked, with the way of having.

Not curious or interested.
Do they realise that I'm dancing and contacting the catgirls and the furries of open-source, along with all that LLM/diffusion model discourse? Well, If they find this and take offence, that's a life.

Gamers are so, so behind on this, it ain't even funny any more.

@aelkus.bsky.social‬
"it's doomed on arrival it's doomed on arrival.
Hard to know where to begin. "AI" includes things as simple as heuristic search (go to first few chapters of the market-leading textbook). It is checking your credit card for fraud (neural network's early usage was in bank/credit transactions). Verbal creep is akin to what happened to "algorithms"
People's relationship to "slop" is also complicated. I hate a good deal of slop but also am an unabashed fan of AI-created cyberpunk electronic mixes, which I take mostly for what they are as background music much of the time
Framing as "anti-AI" at best gives you a high-end status market category, like "GMO-free" and crunchy stuff that eventually gave us RFK Jr and antivaxx crowd
I think a much more feasible thing to lean into is just the consumer backlash that is going to come after vendors realize corrosive effect of low-quality saturation 
‪Damned Robot‬ ‪@supremerobo.bsky.social‬· 3d

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AI will probably end up being what is used to filter out Chinese factory dropshipping goods on Amazon once consumer anger forces action

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barriers to entry will go up and its going to be interesting to see what kind of signifiers of quality will win out. history suggests they could take many different forms
i don't really have much of a clue about what they will be, in large part because vendors' interests also determine this as opposed to just consumer demand. remember chaos after FB tweaked its content recommendation/boosting software repeatedly? Fortunes instantly lost overnight
i do feel fairly confident that the crunchy approach probably leads to a dead end

Me too, as I looked into it.

Debate aggro

I haven't been found out by them yet, with my positions, with my ideas being blacklisted.

All part of the business of being rejected.

So, what happens when it comes to trolls who aggro and seek clout, then it's time to deny. Between status seeking and the status rejection (Recursive status move in of itself) then it's a go ahead that we are the times of our those who attack.

Those who is a doctrinaire

Those who bully

Thoe who trantrum

Welp, Seth? What do you have to say about trolls? With your public domain contribution?

 My feed may need curating again, from spammers and troll.

Have a video.

Surgery checkup, public service.

This is for my hernia, I'll have to make sure it's quick and painless. This is a checkup, on Thursday.

Physicalism has made a public good that has served us, for good or ill, depending on that. It's why i made Kyro a civil servant. Freelance, and a Bodyguard for the silvers.

(Post edit Couch Gregor, Yeah, finding new videos on my tab and algorithm, finally, including a builder's one. That's some of these days in my diary. 

Had to change a little. )

Clown shoes to youtube? thoughts on glamour medium.

 I'm not in a state to make YouTube videos. Since reaching a mass audience is a matter of crapshoot, a commitment. Everybody is everywhere, even with Seth Godin and other marketers everywhere.

That's value.

Why oh why, I must seek metrics, when I can only see it through the conduct of others and the direct market measurements with the metrics, when they follow through and power leads into new leaders through all the way. Yet I know they all do underground electoral meetings of status. There's only a baseline of interest with the celebritydom of social media.

Am I survivor seeing all the status functions happen with each point of time?

Oh well, the tension of the typographical and Televisual mindsets are always with me.