More experimental amateur therapy advice.
It's called the daimon, or what is called a genius, is that what it takes to be content with this passage of time, with no promise of profit?
That's life within this gig economy that is the net, work within the faith and see what comes out, within bringing forth the culmination of experiences and intuitions out.
It only helps to embrace this impostor intuition, and to press ahead with establishing the connections ahead with one's own workload, small and viable to allow self-care.
This inner drive is the only blind faith the serves our journey.