Apr 27, 2026

Surgery prep, placebo time

Its going to get worse if I don't get this, and there's a chance that I'll be bedbound, and a 100 to 1 chance of complications. There may be a hose to draw out excess fluids; there will be at 7:30, where I'll inhale funny gas while getting that feeling of having half my guts slipping down my scrotum out of me. Along with the weird knots.

2 weeks of not exercising.

Do not want an artery cut and then bleed out. Yet this one is a professional. I'll be gowned and sleep and then wake up, right? Sleep and wake. Wake up with my guardian beside me.

Had this with the back teeth out, lower back teeth. 10 years it's been in and last year it was discovered.

Alan Thrall had a video on it; that cooled me.

Had to pull it back in with knots back on Friday. Sometimes it feels like metal brambles, sometimes it feels like a iron rod.

Apr 26, 2026

Psycho Cinema by Helen Rollins

 


It's fun how theories of mind get updated and reiterated.

Apart from misinformation of LLMs and diffusion models on two pages (I'd recommend Nicolas d'Varrreal's A Soul of a New Type for the full epistemology). With collaboration, understanding this tech is possible. Daniel Tutt Interviewed him.

Pretty impressive using psychology and Freaud and Lack, including Hagel. I've seen such modes of thought as enlightening as I explore the manner of idea/expression. With that, such is the commencement of abstract and concrete making of the mind. It's nestled its way through multiple theories of over the political map and other ways that jigger around.

So this one is going the typical dialectical materialism manner of monistic creation. I do like to think mental states can be both independent and dependent, varying on the modes of production. So this fits with the idea that with a complement to the complement of film at the end, it's Slavoj Žižek's Perverts Guide to Ideology extra.

This is total independence with me at my workstation and wordplay right now.



Apr 25, 2026

Utility = outcome deon = Intrinsic justness


Is this a call to action to become the editors of all non-mediocrity, or am I trying to interpret it? Yet with the neoliberal paranoia, it looks like this interpretation may not last.

It was all an overview of the course of an art lawyer.

So is the social media machine of advertising revenue of commodification and all that manner of commercial law that it will lead into?

I'm dipping back into Bryan's files and papers again with social sciences; he's trying to argue for the moral philosophy. Being a lawyer, it's his job. Browsing online, with it are all the ways of stochastic gradient descent. Aligning with and heightening of the commodity relations within sociology.

A blank slate, although not reflective of the equilibrium of epigenetic distribution of each and every telonomy of the enabling constraints and biomechanics, can lead to governance away from heriditarian authority. Or aristocratic, exceptional pretensions.

Wow, that's avoiding eugenics here in regard to judgement and police formation.