Surgery prep, placebo time

Its going to get worse if I don't get this, and there's a chance that I'll be bedbound, and a 100 to 1 chance of complications. There may be a hose to draw out excess fluids; there will be at 7:30, where I'll inhale funny gas while getting that feeling of having half my guts slipping down my scrotum out of me. Along with the weird knots.

2 weeks of not exercising.

Do not want an artery cut and then bleed out. Yet this one is a professional. I'll be gowned and sleep and then wake up, right? Sleep and wake. Wake up with my guardian beside me.

Had this with the back teeth out, lower back teeth. 10 years it's been in and last year it was discovered.

Alan Thrall had a video on it; that cooled me.

Had to pull it back in with knots back on Friday. Sometimes it feels like metal brambles, sometimes it feels like a iron rod.